THE NEW DAWN

I am one among the crowd, the crowd which consists of over-zealous geeks and oiled- air chicks. Yes! I’m doing a course in IT. Yeah well I’m also doing an animation course (wannabe creative or creative wannabe). But all this is irrelevant, doesn’t even matter actually.

Well by God’s grace I have cleared, all many managed to traverse through my career path, clearing many hurdles pretty decently that too.

Why God’s grace? Because I never really burned the midnight oil unlike other geeks.

God’s grace I never took pains to study….

(Well, all this is my new endeavor to polish my vocabulary! All thanks to my buddy content writer and the oxford dictionary)

Anyways let’s get back to the point.

But now it’s the opposite that I follow, I don’t study because I’m confident about God’s grace.

Lol.

All these years my friends used to tell me I’m going to make it big (I wish I could at least become fat).

But the point is that I always had a care free attitude and an air of nonchalance around me.

It was like going with the flow, without even having to put any efforts and also feeling great about it.

But today, yes today was the new dawn-The new dawn of realization.

I was like let me think about my future, or to be more appropriate my sick care free attitude which relates to that.

And I realized that I have to make some difference, put some efforts.

Yea I know ill have to endure some mocks and taunts.

But let me at least try to do something with what I have chosen, after the amount of pains I took to choose my two different careers. (Ending confused as ever)

But does it matter in the end, no it doesn’t because choosing was the last thing I could do, I feel.

I always said I did not care about IT.

I can laugh at that, as If I care for my animation.

I just don’t care about anything.

M I supposed to thank god for this…?

This is what I want to change.

I don’t want to feel like a corpse in this flow of life (m amazed at the sentence I could come up with. Hehe)

Let me make the difference by making some efforts.

Let me be more confident about myself and less confident about God’s grace.

Now the irony.

But this today, this new dawn, was on the day of my unit test papers.

After thinking about all this stuff which seemed logical n satisfying enough, still , I go for the exam not caring a crocodiles ass. (Don’t know where the “efforts” thinking disappeared)

Lol.

N I think I will pass.

But I have something new to say now, thank god ill pass.

Lol. Again I’m laughing at myself and my logical thoughts.

And here I end up with the same old dusk, thinking that the dawn has to show up the next day again.

Well anyways I’m taking it in a positive manner, thinking that my efforts needs to be improved otherwise I will end up thanking god because I failed.

Hehe.

Please excuse the untimed humor.

And Yeah,

I sincerely need to thank my dear loosher(that spelling mistake is intentional) friend.

I have never seen a person so determined and hardworking, which indeed has influenced and motivated me.

But it’s her arrogant and adamant behavior that has helped my stupid brain realize.