The Optimist

Well I have been living the most normal life, some people crave for.


One such example would be my best friend.

He had so many things happen in his life, not good always. But there was always something to talk about. He wanted his life to be normal.


I was just the opposite.

I wanted my life to be in that manner, talking about things in your life, things you have done and a lot more.

But I was this observer who was trying to interpret things about his life and tell him what to do and how to react.

Maybe I have been doing this always, with everyone I guess.


He appreciated this, he thought of me like some one who knows what to do.

Now this came from a person who’s experiencing all the things, and me who can just do the observing thing is supposed to tell him what to do.

I feel like laughing at myself, I can talk all these shit without doing any thing in my own life.


One day after listening to my usual shitty philosophical thoughts he called me an optimist.

Well I did not know what it meant and I took it as a complement.

But when I did ask him what that means he told me ` a person who has a positive outlook towards life `. To put it a manner suitable for me, it means a person who never looses hope.


Well it was correct, though now it did not feel that good. It felt like I cud only hope and do nothing beyond that and be happy.

I m the optimist who can hope and can act only if it involves nil risk.

This leaves me with very few things to do, maybe nothing at all.

That is the reason for my normal monotonous life, which I want to, sorry hope to change, getting involved in some risks, that would be my first step towards becoming a better optimist


Enough is enough.

I feel like doing something, thinking less about it.

Yeah I think I’ll pick up a fight with someone.

Yeah that would be kool

N that too with kid brother, and lets see if I get beaten up.

See this is what I meant, I will never change from being the optimist (my definition).

Though I m trying for it. I will never lose hope.

Lol.


I really have to thank my best friend who has made me realize a lotta stuff.


And yeah i forget to mention , i suck at writing things, as it is its my first post of this kind,

I seriously have to figure out where to leave lines and start paras.